Even thought its been a hectic week, God still never fails to reveal Himself. Its pretty crazy how He works sometimes. Scratch that, all the time. i pretty much put God back into the "box" and put him in my pocket and i only pulled Him out when i needed him. I am beginning to realize just how much that i actually need Him in my everyday life. Because when you think about it... He already knows what's going to happen... so why not just let Him lead you into it? just some food for thought. Anyways, God has just really been letting me know just how far down the list i have put Him.
I think its pretty crazy how i shove God down farther and farther and He still always finds a way to pop into my head and make me think throughout the day. Yesterday for example, as i was getting out of the shower i just stopped and started blankly at the wall, while thoughts of suffering and thoughts of following God flashed through my brain. I was kinda dazed for the next hour or so thinking about what had happened.
So today, another string of thoughts popped into my head as i was driving home. My train of thought went something like this:
- If you're hurt you need something to heal you right?
- If you're down you need a pick me up right?
- Remember your grandparents had "home remedies" to help you?
- I'm your remedy
- Let me heal you
- You can't do it by yourself
Yea i know right? how did i not wreck while all this was going through my head?
This week my mind has just been flooded with thoughts from different relationships over the past year and the only thoughts i was able to think about were the bad ones. And it's always the same ones over and over. and over. and over. Its just torn up my heart to the point where i just get numb to the pain. So needless to say i've been a little out of it. But not letting God deal with it has made everything 19,000 times worse. So i guess the question is, is God our remedy? is God our source of Hope? is God our source of Life? I guess the biggest question is is God our SOURCE of anything?
so point blank, in your and my face, here it is.
If God is our remedy then what the heck are we so worried about? We know that our slate has been wiped clean, we are the redeemed, we are the ones who are free, and we belong to Jesus!
If God isn't our remedy, then what the heck is? This is mainly my problem. No, i'm not afraid to say it. God hasn't been my remedy because i struggle with pride. Not afraid to throw that out there either. But the problem is that God isn't our remedy. So here's the question again. If God isn't our remedy, then what the heck is? what is so much more important that it can get in the way of the Creator of the Universe. The One who breathed us into existance. God is our remedy becuase He knows what makes us tick, he knows what buttons to push to get to us and He knows US! He is the One who has saved us! He is the one who forgave us! He is the one who has come and is coming again. HE'S THE FREAKIN REMEDY.
God, let me get it through my thick skull! You've already saved me, you've already forgiven me. You've already died for me! forgive me for worrying. for doubting. for not putting you in your place that you so rightly deserve.
Think about it. You're sick. You're hurting. Are you not? if you say no you're a liar. i said it. i'll say it again. you're a liar and so am i. Let Him be the medicine that heals. The only medicine that truly heals. Try it. i know i am.
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